Where the hell did the time go?

(Time stand still)

I’m not looking back
But I want to look around me now
(Time stand still)
See more of the people and the places that surround me now
Freeze this moment a little bit longer
Make each sensation a little bit stronger
Experience slips away
Experience slips away


So where the hell did the last year or so go? It breaks my head that it’s been that long since I’ve posted anything to this blog.

The other thing that breaks my head (and that I find amazing and awesome beyond belief!) is that there are still people who are not only following my few posts, but are still reading my stuff — including Avatar — which, from the audience’s point of view, I’ve completely neglected.

I’m here to tell you that’s not exactly true.

So to get this out of the way: I have been working on Avatar, albeit slowly. Part of the issue is that my life changed in ways that make it difficult to find time to write, part of it is that there was a big plot-knot I’m working through (although fortunately I think I’m close) and part of it — sadly — is that writing isn’t the priority it once was.

Don’t get me wrong, I still like to write but I’ve had to shift my focus to other things. Some of that is by necessity and some by choice. Avatar really is something that I want to finish, and I will.

Avatar was supposed to be a piece that I could use to test various writing techniques and learn about writing. One thing I can say I’ve learned is DO NOT POST AS YOU WRITE AS THAT WILL EAT YOUR HEAD! Especially if anyone pays attention to what you’ve written, and let’s face it — if you’re writing, you want people to pay attention to it. Anyway, that path leads to madness. If you fucked up something important in chapter 2, you might not discover it until chapter 30, at which point it’s canon, and if you change it There Will Be People Who Notice!

Hence the plot-knot thing.

Now I’m willing to bet that there are people who saw the letter after this latest chapter number and are thinking, “Fuck, are you serious? I don’t want to read about her! I want the other stuff! The REAL Avatar.” Sorry guys (and gals, if there are any reading this), but I have the chapter timeline laid out the way I do for a reason. And there will be more ‘real’ Avatar chapters coming and soon. Not ‘geological’ soon either, but you know, soon soon.

Okay, so now onto boring stuff that has nothing to do with Avatar or writing and that you can skip if you’re only interested in Avatar.

A few years ago I decided I needed to lose weight and get into better heath. The additional comment by my doctor of “or you’ll probably shorten your life considerably and get a bad disease soon” added weight to that. So I did. Lost a bunch of weight and have kept all about about 5 pounds off. I do that by watching what I eat and by working out 5x a week. Said work out consists of mountain biking and spinning, but mostly roller-blading (which I’ll be doing as soon as I finish writing this).

In order for me to do these awesome things, and not kill myself (literally!), I wear a heart monitor. No, I’m not going to keel over — my average rollerblading speed and distance is over 9mph for 6-8 miles. But still, I need to keep track of the heart rate and make sure I don’t over do.

Where am I going with this? Well… I started using an ap called Cyclemeter. It was a great program and I really liked it. However, when (in a fit of insanity) I went over to an android phone (BIG FUCKING MISTAKE), I needed to switch to another program. The one I chose was Runtastic.

As you might have noticed from a few of my tweets, I’m not amused by their shit.

The program does a good job in a number of ways. It will connect with a heart rate monitor, it will map your route, tell you on a mile basis how far and how fast you went and give you some other useful information.

It will also continually advertise to you, pushing you to buy their gold level (a yearly fee even after you’ve already paid for the base ap!), doesn’t give you a way to export your data (that I’ve found), forces you to their website to get additional stats (which you don’t get anyway unless you pay extra every year. And it ain’t cheap.), and isn’t very configurable on the iPhone. In short, at the end of the year, I’m going back to Cyclemeter, which I hope hasn’t been fucked up in the year that I haven’t been using it.

If you’re going to have an ap, don’t push shit in people’s faces — it just pisses them off. Don’t remove functionality after they’ve bought the fucking thing either (like being unable to get the top speed/mile that you skated and only being able to get the pace — which is fucking useless if you’re skating and not jogging, at least for me). They even took away a voice that I liked — annoying but not critical. And, like most software nowadays, unless you pour money into it (or tweet at their asses) you can forget about support.  Finally, it’d be nice if they’d get off their asses and redo the sound class so it doesn’t hook into the sound for the phone video. Because what happens is if you’ve recently watched a video, whatever you set the sound for in that, is what Runtastic will use.  So if you’ve turned the sound OFF, you have to stop what your doing, go to the video, turn up the sound, and then you’ll get sound back in the ap.

Anyway, other things I’ve been doing to try and get some sanity in my life include going to Cons, making scale models of space ships and slowly learning how to make cosplay props. I won’t go into the reasons why I’m doing those things because it’d be boring, but I mention it so that you’ll understand some of the tweets that I’ve been tweeting.

Oh yeah, and I have been writing, even things other than Avatar. A lot of stuff goes into a scrap pile that, when an idea ignites (like, for instance Sex Witch), I run with. That hasn’t happened since Sex Witch, but honestly I think that’s because every time I sit down to write out an idea, the first thing that comes to mind is why I’m not working on Avatar, which makes me kinda dread sitting down and writing. It’s hard to get past that sometimes, but I’m working on it.

Anyway, that’s it for now. If you’ve read this far, thanks. If you’re still following Avatar, double thanks and if you’ve been buying any of my books quintuple thanks (I skipped a few there, but hey, if you buy my shit I’m really grateful!). I know people have asked if I’ll ever publish Avatar for pay — the answer is no due to the incredibly stupid laws across the world. If you want to contribute to Avatar in that way, you can either give money to StoriesOnLine or drop a couple of bucks into my Patreon.



About Dark Pen

I am Dark Pen. I write BDSM stories, almost always with plot and consider myself a Soldier in the battle against America's war on sex.
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2 Responses to Where the hell did the time go?

  1. Spirit says:

    Hey Dark,
    I’m rereading Avatar I and II just to refresh in hopes you’ll continue to post. They are as good as I remembered, especially when read over a short time. I very interested in the story line, and to my surprise the bdsm/sex started taking a secondary interest about 2/3rds through Avatar I. Thanks for writing!

    • Dark Pen says:

      Thanks Spirit. Yeah, it’s slow going. I keep hoping that I’ll be able to speed up posting, but I’d need to speed up writing, and I’ve been failing at that spectacularly.

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