Still on hold… and holding on…

Still On Hold

People have asked, over the years, why I don’t put Avatar up for sale. They say they’d be happy to pay for it, and while I appreciate the sentiment, there are a bunch of reasons why I haven’t, and won’t, do it.

The first is that yes, there are about four people who would be happy to pay for it. The rest would not, and then I’d lose tons of readers

The second is that I started it as a free story, and I’d rather keep it that way. Once I finish Book two (yes, I will finish it), there are a few more stories floating around in my head in that universe and those I might consider selling. And I might not, who knows.

The final reason is one that many of you are aware of: We live in a nation of hypocritical prudes.

Lea says it to Ken the very first time they meet:

Again, there was that flash of sadness in her eyes. She sighed. “Your people are so… strange. You deny your own sexuality, yet use it for currency. You deny sexuality to those who are below some artificially created age, yet exploit them in secret, subtle ways while longing for the youth that they have and you do not.”

So, plainly put, Avatar can’t be sold. I’ve posted and tweeted in the past about corporate censorship. The list of thigns we can’t write about grows by leaps and bounds.

Love that whole free country thing.

Anyway, Avatar is still on hold until I can wrap my head around how I wanna get from where I am to the finish line. I’ve been doing some other writing, but mainly to just keep writing because, you know, they say you should write every day. I write most days. Lately, I’ve gotten interested in a story in a world I’ve been working on a long time, but haven’t actually posted or sold any stories in. Who knows, this might be the first.

My work situation is still bad. I still have a job, but it’s like walking on eggshells every day. The manager I work for is, well, pretty unhinged, but repeated complaints to upper management and even the “ethics” people (corporate ethics, which is why I put that in quotes) have gone unheeded. I could understand — somewhat — if I was the only person complaining, but mine is only one voice in the crowd. And we’re still ignored. I can only hope that I can hold on there until I can get work somewhere else. But, of course, the same corporations that are fucking people who work for them, are “saving money” and not hiring people. And that’s before the effects of Sequestration, which really haven’t hit yet.

Our country’s a fucking mess. I think things haven’t gotten really bad with the people yet because we cling to several illusions: Upward Mobility (that’s pretty much gone) and Freedom (severely curtailed). The biggest illusion we cling to is that we can choose our government. News flash folks: We can’t. Most of us simply don’t have the money to effect the outcome.

Anyway, here’s to hoping that I’ll get back on track with Avatar sooner rather than later. We’ll see. In the mean time, thanks for checking in.

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Time… stands still. NOT.

Holy shit! I haven’t written a blog post since OCTOBER?? Damn how time flies.

Well, you all know that in December I posted a chapter a week, which was a great thing. Now it’s March and I haven’t posted anything since. Not here on my blog and not on SOL. You might be wondering why. Or you might not. Of course, I’m assuming that if you’re reading this, you might be a bit curious about what’s going on.

A number of things, actually.

Life, for one thing, hasn’t been all that great. There are the normal ups and downs, but the downs have been a bit deeper, and the ups don’t seem to go up very far. Much of that has to do with my job — which is seriously shit-tastic. But it’s a shit-tastic thing that pays the bills. They fucked me over pretty badly this year, and because of that — and our awesome congress (they don’t deserve the capital C), I don’t know if I’ll have a job much longer. If I don’t, things will spiral downward pretty quickly. My wife and I actually need the medical benefits that the job provides and I rather doubt I need to tell any of you just how fucked up the job market is right now, even, or perhaps especially, in the tech sector where I work.

To add to the fun, after a several month decline, one of our pets died. I know that to some people their pets don’t mean much, but to my wife and I they are good friends and part of our little family. The loss of one of them — especially a young one who should have had many years ahead of him — was very difficult. The day we had to put him to sleep was especially unpleasant, since I started out that day with chest pains and an ER visit. I’ve already had one heart attack, so chest pains are nothing to fool around with. Fortunately the pain was from stress (both work and home), but unfortunately, when I left the ER EIGHT hours later, I had to go home, gather up our sick pet and take him to the vet with my wife. Not a banner day and the worst Valentines day ever.

I’m really not happy that my life has turned into such a fucking drama. I hate drama and I’d hoped that by this point in my life things would smooth out. They haven’t though, and in spite of all our work, they might never. Certainly if I lose my job things will get very bad.

I stopped work on Avatar a while ago. I have things all plotted out and thought I was rolling along pretty well, but there are some elements of the story that just don’t seem to be coming together the way I think they should. So I put it aside for a while in hopes that I’d be able to take a fresh look at it. Then shit started falling apart and there were many weeks of no writing at all.

The good news is that I’ve started to write again, but the bad news is that it hasn’t been on Avatar. I know I will finish the story, but again, the when will depend on how life goes. If I lose my job, I doubt I’ll be writing much of anything since I’ll be putting a lot of time and effort into searching for a new one. Which will suck for any number of reasons — not the least of which is that I really don’t like what I do for a living. Not any more. Corporations run by idiots with MBAs have seen to that.

Anyway, I have been writing, and if things go well and my life doesn’t detonate on me again, I’ll get back to Avatar, sooner rather than later. If I don’t get back to Avatar in the short term, well, the book I’m currently working on seems to be coming along pretty well, so maybe you’ll go buy that once it’s out. Or not. Times are tough all over.

Finally, I’d like to thank people for the emails reminding me that I haven’t posted Avatar in a while. And I’m serious about that. It lets me know that people haven’t forgotten it, although I’m certain I’ve lost quite a few readers since I’ve been so fucking slow about getting the story out. I’m sorry about that, and to those who have stuck around, thank you very much. And since you reminded me, I went back into the story this morning, edited another chapter and put it up. Enjoy!

And again, thank you.

(The title of this post is a reference to a Rush song, in case you were wondering.)

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Keep Calm and Read the Chapter!

And another chapter of Avatar is posted. When I look at where I am with regard to the writing this story, verses what I’ve posted, I feel a little guilty. Also, when you read this chapter, it’s my hope that you’re neither pissed nor confused about what the hell is going on.

I feel guilty because I’m probably twenty chapters ahead of what you’re reading. Okay, eighteen. And I don’t post all that often. But the thing is, the story’s become complex. There are a lot of moving parts and I’m afraid if I don’t give myself enough leeway to make sure that all those moving parts don’t crash into each other, that they’ll… well, crash into each other. This would annoy you.

Even with all my caution, I’m afraid the moving parts are gonna crash into something they shouldn’t. I never meant for Avatar to be this complex. I mean, it was just supposed to be about some guy and a sex goddess and lots of sex. I think I’ve delivered on the sex, but all of these plot lines! Yeesh!

You’re probably not going to want to hear this, but the fact is that Avatar is my practice piece. I’ve learned a huge amount about how to write while writing it. At least, it seems that way to me. If it turns out that you don’t think so well… don’t buy any of my books. Another truth is the fact that I could take any of the plot lines that currently exist — the Costas, the stuff with Sensei (which I don’t think you’ve read yet), the direction that Jane is going, the Tankers… any of it really, and turn it into a full length book. So the trick is to give you enough info to make the story flow, but not take any seriously deep detours.

This new chapter might make you wonder about that, and rightfully so. This portion of the story was meant to stand alone, and then I changed my mind because it dove-tailed so well into the main story. So there you have it. Another plot line. But it does come together, I promise.

From where I am in the story, things are finally getting to the point where I can start to resolve well, pretty much everything. Once I do, and Establishment is finished, I have no idea what I’ll do next. Avatar will remain a closed world (meaning no sanctioned fanfic), at least for the foreseeable future. Hell, I might even write a few Amazon-worthy tales and put ’em up for sale. I’m sure they’d sell. At least one or two copies. Or not.

So anyway, I guess my point is that you guys are my beta testers. Avatar didn’t, and isn’t, being written like a book. A book is proofed and finished before it’s seen by the intended audience. For me though, it’s better than a book because you guys email me and TELL me things about it while it’s in progress. So I guess it’s more of a live ARC.

So anyway, enjoy the new chapter. Feel free to let me know what you think of it. And please accept my apologies for the times between postings. Once I’ve actually finished the story, I’ll be posting a hell of a lot more frequently.

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Why Apple has pissed me off so much.

Hype. That’s what it all comes down to: Hype.

I thought that I’d treat myself to an iPhone 5. I’ve been feeling kinda shitty lately, and could use a pick-me-up. Plus, while I’m not an Apple Fan Bouy, I do have a love for new tech, and they make nice machines. My current phone is an iPhone 4, so I thought it was time to upgrade. Now, I really didn’t want to stand on line for 12 hours to get one, so I figured I’d wait a week or so, then go to the store and buy one. Mistake.

I spent hours on the phone — admittedly while I was doing other things — trying, just TRYING to get someone to tell me if they even had one of the fucking things in stock. Nope. No go. A fucking WEEK after the launch of a HUGE product, the stores — all of them — are sold out.

So screw it, I thought. I’ll just order one online and wait a FUCKING MONTH to get it. Oh well. Then, on a lark, I call again. Yes sir, I’m told. We have some. Not many, but some. Come on down. This, mind you, after 45 minutes on hold. So, I get in my car, drive the half hour to the Apple store (Get one at an AT&T store? You’re joking, right?), and I’m told, oh no. We haven’t had those in for HOURS. Now I’m kinda pissed.

So I’m back to fuck it — I’ll order one. Until someone says, hey, they have this online thing. Between 10pm and 4am, you can order on line and pick it up at the store. Huh, I think. Interesting. I’ll give that a try.

So I do. What a laugh. By the time I go through the process of giving the All Mighty Apple all the required information, there are no phones left. That was about 10:10, mind you. Ten minutes. And they weren’t just out in the store I selected, they were out in stores as far as a hundred and twenty miles away.

Over the next two days, I refine the process of going through Apple’s gauntlet. Last night, I actually picked a store that had what I wanted in stock. So I click to order it, and Apple throws up a NEW road block: The Apple ID.

This is a new thing for iOS 6. You apparently don’t use your itunes information anymore, it’s been usurped by the Apple ID. I don’t fucking WANT an Apple ID, thank you very much. But, because it’s Apple, I don’t have a choice. If you want to play in their walled garden, you must bend over when they want you to. By the time I get through the Apple ID debacle, well… you guessed it. The phone that I’d clicked on and had been ready to pay for, was gone. NO ONE had any, not in any store. None.

I thought I’d give it one more try tonight. I had EVERYTHING ready. EVERYTHING. I was signed in with my shiny new Apple Approved Apple ID. I had my credit card info ready to cut and paste. I had EVERYTHING. So I wait.

Then it happened. At 10:01, a store within range showed my product. I selected it then clicked on Check Out Now. However, having been fucked over now for three nights running, I’m only the tiniest bit optimistic. Then, I get it again. YOU MUST NOW SIGN IN USING YOUR APPLE APPROVED APPLE ID. WTF? I’m ALREADY signed in. Well, I’ve prepared for this, so I quickly input my info. The little wait dial spins and my order comes up. Hey, look, they’ve already got my credit card information! I do a quick check, then hit final checkout. I might actually get it this time!

The little spinnie thing comes up as I wait for my final confirmation. Aaaaannnnd….

BZZZZZT!!

Sorry, the store you selected is out of stock.

WHAT?? BUT I FUCKING HAD THE FUCKING PHONE! I FUCKING PAID FOR IT!

BZZZZZT! Thanks for playing you stupid fuck! We got you again! HAHAHAHA!

Elapsed time from when I clicked on the store that had it, until I clicked to pay for it: less than 2 minutes. Elapsed time from the 10pm start time? 3 minutes.

Three. Fucking. Minutes.

And there are no phones available within 120 miles of where I sit.

In THREE MINUTES Apple sold out of all of the phones they graciously dribbled out the their adoring public.

Hey Apple! Could you maybe FUCKING SEND OUT MORE THAN THREE FUCKING PHONES PER STORE?

It’s all about the hype. Keeping the rabid Fan Bouys rabid. Keeping the supply low so the demand stays up. And it’s a good plan, because people will fall for it again and again and again. Even if they’re not Fan Bouys, but just someone like me who likes tech. I use Apple phones because they just work. I don’t use Apple computers because I don’t like them.

I blame myself, of course. As I said, I’m having a shitty week, and a new phone would have been just the thing. My wife gets my iPhone 4 (which she really wants), and I get a new toy. But nope. Because of the Apple Hype machine, and their AWESOME business model, that ain’t happening. I’ll have to look for my pick-me-up elsewhere because all Apple has delivered is disappointment, and, quite frankly, a lot of serious anger. In fact, they made my week a good deal worse by dangling the prize in front of me, then laughingly yanking it away just as I think I might get it. If it were up to only me, at this point, I’d be looking at another smart phone. But my wife is, alas, NOT a techie, and trying to get her moved over would be… difficult. Besides, she doesn’t have to deal with this shit, and she really, REALLY likes her iPhone (can you say addict?). The pain of trying to get her to change phone type would be… significant. Plus, I find it hard to deny her pretty much any thing. So we’ll probably stick with that.

Probably.

But in the mean time, I won’t be forgetting this. And when people ask me what I think of Apple, and their products, well… a glowing review is out of the question.

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The New America

As I sit here for my fourth day in the hospital, I’m realizing just how much damage has been done to our country in the last 20-30 years.

It’s not the terrorist attacks, the wars that our “leaders” have gotten us into or a bad economy that’s killing us. It’s the way we do business. President Calvin Coolidge once said “The business of America is business.” People suggest that his statement was overconfidence after the depression. I don’t know, but I can’t help but think he wasn’t talking about the way we do business NOW.

Because, you see, business in American used to be about BUILDING something. About making something that worked, something that people want to buy and use. No longer. Thanks to people like Jack Welsh from GE — along with many, many others — business is about one thing and one thing only: Making money and funneling it to the top.

I use to think that it was the insurance companies that had ruined our health care system. They weren’t the only reason Healthcare in American was failing (can you say lawyers and greedy patients?), but they were at least 90% of the problem. Now I see that’s not completely true — they are only the logical result of the actual problem.

I look around the floor here, and I see overworked nurses doing their best to see to the patients. I see doctors always in motion, handling one problem after another. What do I also see? Paperwork. Tons and tons of paperwork. These people have to fill out a form to fill out a form. I KNOW most of that is driven by the insurance companies. But it appears that the same idiots that foisted CMMI and “Process” and all that bullshit on the software industry — absolutely gutting our ability to actually get something done — have done the same thing our health care system. All in the name of “Affordability” and “Process”. And of course, protecting their collective asses from the carrion eaters we call lawyers.

I wish America would wake up. CMMI, Process, bureaucracy and FUCKING BEAN COUNTING are KILLING our industries the way they’ve destroyed what little working ability our government had left after politics got finished with it. And all of that process is for one reason and one reason only: Profit.

Profit for the top “earners”. You’ll note I put that in quotes because the majority of these people don’t earn anything — the new system just GIVES them the fruits of other people’s labors. Without meaningful regulation, the stockmarket and financial rules have been manipulated into a system that funnels vast sums of unearned wealth into the pockets of people who have the means to make the system work for them; and the means to rewrite the rules.

People who don’t have the means are frozen out while at the same time being told that they have to play. Companies get rid of pension plans and replace them with 401ks. You want to retire someday? Stop working when you’re too old to work? Fine. Put your money into the market, because social security and pensions aren’t gonna do it for you. But “We the People” don’t have the money to play that game in any meaningful way — our money is essentially stolen and give to someone else.

In America, earning wealth used to mean WORKING for it. PRODUCING something for it. At least for the middle and lower classes. I suspect, judging from our own very short history, that the rich — the old money rich — just live off someone else’s abilities. In American, we don’t have a huge number of examples of people actually EARNING their wealth. Bill Gates and Steve Jobs are people who come immediately to mind — love ’em or hate ’em, they still produced something that changed our country, and the world. And that’s the way it used to be. Cars, airplanes, electricity and many other things were invented in America. Not anymore though. It costs too much.

This is the New America. The country where everyone wants to be rich, but no one wants to work for it. Worse, nowadays it’s almost IMPOSSIBLE to work for it because the system is gamed. It’s owned by the top dogs, who have obeyed the golden rule: He who has the gold, makes the rules. They don’t want to build — to innovate or create. Not in any concrete way, although they DO get to be creative when they find new ways of skirting laws meant to keep them from out and out stealing from everyone else. The effort big money puts into finding ways around rules that are already weak is astounding.

It’s so sad when my boss comes to me and says “The company wants you to be affordable, creative and innovative in your work.” Last time he said that to me, I just looked at him and said, “The end result of most creativity and innovation is failure. Please show me a time in our process driven and created schedule where I’m allowed to fail, and I’ll be happy to try new things.”

As you can imagine, I received silence as an answer.

American used to have a Golden Goose. It was the working class, be it middle, lower or upper. That goose was Producing Something Concrete. Not a derivative or a stock option, but REAL object that held WORTH. The Golden Goose, however, is starving from cut backs and constantly being fed paperwork while being ordered to make more eggs.

Just a warning: If the New America and its class of profit driven overlords don’t get it through their thick skulls that that golden goose they’ve been living off of is about to die because they aren’t letting it get enough food, this country will go the way of Rome. Just a lot faster. Maybe even in their lifetimes — which would be a fitting end.

By the way, this youtube clip sums up very nicely so much of what is going wrong: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h__uutzcQXc

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Writing

May 12 2012

Wow. It’s May already! Where does the time go?

I’ve been working on Avatar now, pretty much non-stop, since last June. Yes, I said last June. I’m still not finished, but I can at least SEE the end of Book Two. This is a good thing, since I gotta tell you as much as I love Avatar, I’d like to move onto some other projects. Once book two is finished, it’ll be a while before I return to the series. Oddly, I get people who ask me if they can write in the Avatar universe, and while I’m flattered, I’m sad to say I’d prefer you didn’t. I have plans for upcoming stories. I’ll tell you though, NONE of those plans include anything else as long as Establishment. Sheesh, that’s a lot of writing.

It’s been hard to stick to just writing Avatar this last year. Especially after I released that short story on Amazon and it was completely ignored. No, I’m not whining and asking people to go buy it, but it was kind of a wakeup call. Dark Pen is a somewhat known name, but the other name is not. I want to build that other name up, since I want to release standard SciFi books using it, but well, sales like that make me wonder why I should bother. Amazon is a tough market.

Building name recognition is important and when I see the success that people like Felicia Day and Will Wheaton have had, I understand even better what they went through to get them. Promoting is a lot of very hard work and while I’m not a bad writer, I do believe that I suck at self promotion. Worse, I don’t do this full time. Still, the advice I keep hearing from people who’ve “made it” is: “Don’t give up!”

I hear that the hardest part of getting yourself known is actually getting people to read/listen/view your creative works. They can be the greatest things in the world, but if you can’t get people to give them a chance, you ain’t goin’ nowhere. I know this as both a musician (yes, I really am in a band) and as a writer. As Dark Pen, I have a certain small amount of notoriety. And when I say small, I mean it. I’m not being disingenuous here — thems just the facts. I write BDSM, and it doesn’t matter how good it is because when it comes to getting the word out, let’s face it: 50 Shades notwithstanding, the number of people who like BDSM is pretty small.

Oh, and don’t get me started on 50 Shades. Really. Just don’t.

I know I write pretty good sex scenes. There are main stream authors out there who TRY to (like LKH), but I’m sorry, most of them just aren’t very good. Not that those people aren’t good story tellers — their own successes are confirmation that they are — they don’t write good sex scenes. And believe me, there’ve been many times when I’ve wondered if I’m good at writing sex scenes but nothing else. I suppose that the later chapters of Avatar, the ones you haven’t seen yet, will give me some indication in that. Or maybe not. I mean, if you’ve gotten this far in the story, you’re obviously at least somewhat invested in the characters.

I know I’m not alone in wondering if explicit sex combined with good SciFi/Fantasy is just not interesting to people. Maybe people just don’t want to be jerked in two different directions in one book. A little sex here and there in a good SciFi story is fine. Or some SciFi in a good sex story. But both? I just don’t know.

A1 books, who distributes my hard core writing, will be putting one of those hard core books up on Amazon. I’m leery of Amazon, but they’re the big fish in the pond right now. Bigger than Smashwords. And as such they have the clout to tell the credit card companies to go fuck themselves when they try and censor creative works in the name of whatever morality they want to push. Yes, moral credit card companies is a serious oxymoron — much like Fox “News”, but, like the religious right, they are sneaky. They chip away at your freedom, counting on the fact that you won’t really notice, or, more likely, you’re just too embarrassed that you like to read about a piss-drinking, masochistic eighteen year old girl to complain about what they’re doing. (You just cringed there, didn’t you? C’mon, admit it, even if it’s only to yourself. See? THAT is why they’re winning.)

So back to Avatar. I’m unsure if I’m going to take a break from it or not before I make that final push to finish. I love the story, but I feel as if it’s dragging. Writing, creating, really, is a mood thing. A good project will pull you into the mood. It won’t let you go and it’ll keep slapping you until you’re finished. Avatar is a good project, but I think it’s slapped me too many times.

I have written something like 22 chapters that haven’t been posted yet. Now, because of the story arc, I can’t just post them all, then go back to writing more. These things have to be done in order. But I really feel as if I’m closing in on the ending. It’s a ways off, but I can see it. I just don’t know if a break would be good for the story or not. Plus there’s the attention span of my audience. I mean shit, some of you guys have been around since the beginning. Probably not many, but a few. I know because I’ve got your emails — yes, I keep all of them. And I really appreciate them. But it’s been years, and I don’t want to keep dragging it out. Even for what’s turned into a serial, years is a long time.

So, no answers at the moment. No idea if I’ll take a break or not. Every time I sit down and decide to work on something else, Avatar is there reminding me I’m not finished. That’s both good and bad. Now I have to decide if it’s more bad than good. Even if I do take a break though, I have at least 10 chapters that I can post with no problems. At my current rate, you’ll be reading for a while even if I do take a break.

Thanks for sticking with me. Thanks for reading. You guys are great!

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Corporate Censorship and the Theocratic States of America.

If you’re not interested in reading about my thoughts on Paypal and the theocracy the USA is becoming, feel free to skip ahead to the portion after the three asterisks (***). Otherwise, read on, but beware. I’m not pulling any punches. The time for that is over.

So everyone’s breathing a sigh of relief because Paypal backed off their corporate censorship bid. Well, maybe not everyone. I’m not, and I’m sure there are other people who aren’t either. Because it isn’t over. And it won’t be over until we have laws in this country that protect our rights.

We have laws like that, you say. Do we? Really? You could have fooled me.

The Frog in the Pot theory was mentioned on one of the blogs I read, and it’s a theory that the government — Republicans and Democrats — have been using for a long time. My hot button with the Democrats is gun control. They’ve been chipping away at Second Amendment rights for a long time. There have been some reversals of that in recent years, but with the good comes the bad. And this time, it’s a whole lotta bad: Fundamentalist Republicans.

It’s one thing to run the government using a fiscal philosophy and there was a time when Republicans did that. No more. Now the government is the dog that’s being waged by a theocratic tail. Ah. Theocracy. It’s not much better than an Idiocracy. But I’m not going to mince words anymore. I’m going to say it straight out:

It’s the rabid Christians that are causing this problem.

Oh, I can see some of you shaking your heads, but you know it’s true. Are the Jews or the Muslims trying to get the bible into our education system? our court rooms? the halls of our government? No. It’s the Christians.

Now I’m not gonna go off here and say All Christians Are Bad. They aren’t. In fact, I’m betting that the vast majority of them aren’t. But the vocal ones are. They’re ignorant and proud of it. They think people like Palin, Michele Bachmann and that barbarian from the Middle Ages Santorum are smart. And somehow they’re gaining control of our country.

Enough of that. Back to Paypal. Paypal has a leg to stand on because if there’s one thing here in America we’re proud to say we’re against, it’s sex. Sex is evil. It’s like a drug, and you know how we feel about drugs! We gotta stamp them out! Well, except for the ones we can make an obscene profit on — or are government approved. Like having sex only for procreation (which is why we don’t need birth control). Anyway, Paypal was able to contemplate banning completely legal fiction because if they were brought to court, they’d win. No good, Christian, law-abiding American would read that horrible trash. Sex with dogs. Pseudo-incest. And Rape — which is always bad unless it’s State Sponsored Rape (you know, like all those bills our theocracy keeps passing), or where everyone knows the girl was a slut. How do we know she’s a slut? Well, she’s taking birth control pills!

Never mind that there is no such thing as “pseudo-incest”. The major reason why incest is BAD is because of biology, plain and simple. Because of bad gene reinforcement. But of course, in this country, talking about a biological fact is verboten.

Note that I said the major reason. I should have said ONE major reason. There are others that are not so easily pinned down. Power dynamics between parent and child would be another. And I’m sure there are more.

But murder is bad. Horrific murder, described in loving detail. Described in ways that show you how to get away with it. That kind of fictional writing is in thousands of books, and no one cares. It’s on TV almost every night, and no one cares. But bring that truly evil thing called SEX into the picture, and It Must Be Stopped.

This thing with Paypal isn’t over. Not by a long shot. They’re gonna do what the anti-abortion and gun control crowds do — slowly nibble around the edges until your right to read what you want is gone. Hell, if you want to read about a seventeen year old boy pounding the shit out of his high school teacher, you’re already out of luck — unless we’re talking about violence. Because seventeen is too young to be having sex. In this century, anyway.

So please keep your eye out. Watch carefully what these fuckers, and by ‘fuckers’ I mean monopolistic corporations (Paypal) and the coming Christian Theocracy, are doing to us. I’m not saying you shouldn’t believe what you want. I’m saying you need to stop from trying to force other people to believe it.

The Christians say “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.”

And that shows the fatal flaw in their thinking. What if I don’t WANT to be treated like a Christian? Sure, there are commonalities in our beliefs. I don’t want you to walk around slapping people, for instance. But when you push your religion on me. When you push a free government into adopting YOUR morality, and YOUR beliefs couched as scientific fact, you’re slapping me in the face. Keep that shit up, and I assure you I won’t be turning the other cheek.

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So, on to other news. I’ve almost completed a major story arc for Avatar. This makes me a happy camper, even though it’ll be a while before you guys see it. I’m working hard to wrap the story up. Today, I’ll be posting chapter 62 which for me means I have eighteen other chapters written, but not edited. Yes, I could put them out faster, but things towards the end of the story are getting complicated. Yes, I know where I’m going, but when I get there with you all, I don’t want you to be thinking “What the fuck?” because I missed something and f’d up the story. So I’m posting slowly. Now, once I’ve finished the story — and I have no idea when that’ll be in spite of knowing how I’m going to get there — I’ll be trying to edit as fast as I can and post weekly.

And finally, please remember that there are links to paid content on this blog. If you buy something off Amazon, feel free to rate it. The Amazon story is softer core than my other books, because it’s more mainstream. Of course, I still think it’s a good story, or I wouldn’t have posted it. And when I say softer core, I don’t mean the sex isn’t hot and descriptive. I just mean that there’s not as much BDSM in it as I usually write. I would have put it in there, but I was afraid Amazon might ban the book. Again, with the censorship. But I have somewhat less of a problem with Amazon doing it because it’s their site and for now, I have other places to sell my work. Paypal, on the other hand, is all but a monopoly, not to mention it’s just a fucking pay service. Like my bank, they should have absolutely NO say in what I buy with MY money.

So have fun, enjoy this latest chapter, and feel free to email me about what you like or don’t like in my books. Or, you can comment here.

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